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[20 Oct 2005|10:30pm] [ mood | calm ] [ music | Abatu-Maelstrom Manifesto ] holy fucking shit. hahaha. it's been so long since i've been on this site. hahha. well alot of shit's happened, started playing shows with abatu, going to california, recording alot of shit. crazy. 2 Devoured by wolves _ Walk into the forest

[29 Jul 2005|12:57am] [ mood | tired ] [ music | Opeth - Closure ] it sure has been a while since i've updated this. earlier tonight was pretty cool. dryspell had practice and then after azog and i hung out here for a little while then he went to get food and went home. i'm totally over ericka now. i hate her so much. i'm glad i'm back with nikki. i love her. 1 Devoured by wolves _ Walk into the forest

There is no such thing as happiness. [09 Jun 2005|04:49am] [ music | Nargaroth - Seven Tears are Flowing to the River ] There is no point in living in a world that you were created to be happy if you can not find happiness. I have no one. Happiness is no longer available to me. Everyone I meet, lies to me. Tonight, half of my body told me to rid myself of this place but the other half told me to remain on this shit hole planet. I want out of here so fucking bad. I have no friends at all. They're people who are supposed to be there for you. Fuck that! Even my very close friends are never here. Every one of them does not contact me about anything. From now on, I am disconnecting my self from everyone. I'm so fucking sick of people! I don't want anything to do with anyone anymore. I have nothing at all. I have no possessions, nothing! I am so fucking sick of being fucked around by people. People who say that they're your friends aren't really your friends. They'll lie to you! Trust me, I've already been there. The only honest person I have ever met was Eugene Sinkinson. He was my best fucking friend in this god forsaken place. He commited Suicide to end his life when he was 19. He'll be 20 on the 27th of this month. I'm going to buy a bottle of Jager on his birthday and I'm going to the tree where he hung himself and I'm going to drink with him. There's no other person that I trusted than him. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm thinking of going back up North to get away from everyone and everything that is in Florida. I don't care about the bands now. Dry Spell is going completely to shit without Eugene. Kevin and I don't talk anymore. Kitty doesn't talk to me anymore either. Bryanna (Kevin's GF) is a fucking bitch. I hate all of you. You all mean absolutely nothing to me anymore. I'm through with you all. Fuck off! 1 Devoured by wolves _ Walk into the forest

Twilight of the Gods... [08 Jun 2005|07:02pm] [ music | Bathory-A Fine Day to Die ] Yesterday, June 7th, was the one year anniversary of the death of Thomas Forsberg a.k.a. Quorthon. He died in his stockholm apartment from heart failure at the age of 39. R.I.P. Quorthon!!! HAILS! Walk into the forest

[08 Jun 2005|06:51am] [ mood | pessimistic ] [ music | Judas Iscariot-Journey through visions of war ] Well. Yesterday was pretty fuckin' shitty. I was feeling like shit all day. I had the worst headache when I woke up and it just sucked. So I get up for about a half hour, then I fall back asleep. Wake up again at like 10:30 PM and the headache's still fucking there! pisses me off!! anyways, I didn't know what to do anymore with nikki so I told her that I don't want to be a burden on her because she just fucking worries too god damn much. I found a new friend and I'm telling you, she's fucking amazing. Finally someone who likes me for me and not because I play drums in a band. I hope something could happen with her because, she's a hell of alot closer and she's fucking amazing. I might go to the brass mug on the 13th while her friend's band is playing. They're called "Wake up Dead". HAHA! Funny name for a band when it's impossible to wake up dead, haha. Anyways, they're like a hardcore/metal/punk band or whatever but I'm just going to hang out with her. I won't go inside the brass mug because if I do, they'll probably have me arrested for a previous incident from the big metal fest they had there last month, haha. If any of you were there, you'll know what I did. HAHA! Other than all of this, I've just had been thinking alot. A few hours ago up until I decided to activate my journal again, I was reading through Grond's livejournal trying to find the "Sodomizing Christian Children" lyrics but I failed. I don't know what the lyrics are or where they are. After I was done reading Grond's livejournal, I stubbled into Azog's. Man, that guy can be a fucking author if he wanted to. He has such a great imagination and a perfect memory! Who the fuck remembers something from before kindergarten? HE DOES! He's my brother and my best fucking friend! He's the only one I have left. If I lose him in any way, I don't know what I'd do. I'll probably disconnect myself from everyone and everything. Without him, there would be nothing left for me. We understand eachother so fucking well that when we look at eachother, we can talk telekenetically. Him and Grond are my brothers. Grond fell over 7 months ago. Azog is my only living brother. I'll stop now. Earlier this morning, I recorded the vocals to my new song. It is entitled "Möurnful Cry of Gjaller Horn". It's about six minutes in lenght along with "Coming of Ragnarok". That one is eight minutes long. I really like how these songs are turning out. They're so good. Azog and I are going to Open up the distro soon. We're going to have it as "The Dungeon" as we planned before Grond fell. It won't be a store yet, but we'll get it there. Walk into the forest

Hatred towards Humanity [30 May 2005|06:36pm] [ music | Emperor-The Prophet ] I hate people. I hate when people say they're your so-called "friends" and they never speak to you again. FUCK YOU! you know exactly who you fucking are! Walk into the forest

[21 May 2005|02:34am] [ mood | Eh, somewhat down ] [ music | Blind Guardian- Nightfall in Middle Earth ] ugh, I am falling for one I doubt I'll ever have. I recorded a new song for Natte Ulf entitled "Vinter ist Gekommen". The vocals are in german and so is the name. I think my next CD will be all in the German Language. It's a change yes, but it is still the same person. Tonight I'm going to see Behemoth, Nile, King Diamond, and Black Dahlia Murder. I'm only going to see Behemoth and Nile. I hate King Diamond because he's the only member of the band who wears corpse paint and puts inverted crosses between his eyes. What a fag. HAHA. I can't wait for the show because I get to see Kitty. She's the most awesome girl I've ever met. I'm not going to say anything that will come back to me. But, I really wish she could be my girlfriend. I love the girl to death, but I guess I'm not good enough. Well, that just about shuts that down huh? Oh well. I still haven't found my wallet. It'll turn up soon...Hopefully. The other day, I painted one of my walls black. The wall with all of my weapons and the one with my Graveland poster. It looks pretty badass. I like it alot. It makes my room look so much more Grim, hahaha. I forgot to mention this in the section about the new Natte Ulf CD, the new CD will be titled "Wolf der Nacht" it will probably have ten to twelve songs on it. This will be my full length disc. I might make it into a tape too, I'm not sure though. I still can't get her out of my head. I love the way her voice sounds. I love the way she looks. I love it when she hugs me. Why did I pick a girl I could never have. I would treat her like a fucking Queen. The Queen of Metal! I would do everything I could to please her. Sorry, I never really had this much shit going on before. It's quite new to me. I expressed how I feel to her and all she said was, "Why me?". I hate the fact that I can't have the one girl who I care about the most. I could give two shits about all the other girls in the world. Kitty is special and that's why I love her. I know, I'm weird. I don't care though. I love her and I'll never stop loving her. I wish I could have her so bad. I'd give anything to be with her. Okay, I'll stop with this. I'm sure no one wants to read all this mushy stuff. haha. I'm going to get some sleep before Abatu practice and the show. Later Kitty if you read this, I hope with whatever happens, we'll always be friends. 2 Devoured by wolves _ Walk into the forest

[07 May 2005|07:55pm] [ mood | shitty ] [ music | The Zimmermann Note - New Deception ] Last night was pretty fun. Ian and his girlfriend Ruthie came to our practice and we had a pretty fun time like usual, just jamming. The riser for the drums are built but i have to screw four more legs on to it to keep it stable so it won't wobble when i play. I've been feeling like shit the past few weeks. i stated this in my entry below this one so i don't know. I finally bought myself a Viking Sword as a gift to myself. haha. it's pretty nice. it's heavy as hell though. I'm thinking of painting my room this weekend but i'm not sure. i'm going to need help doing it but no one's ever here to help me. my mom's always working, my sister's always out with her faggot boyfriend and kevin is always sleeping, haha. i don't blame him, that fucker is so mixed up with his sleep schedule but it's cool. hahaha i used to be the same way. oh well... Walk into the forest

Unknown [30 Apr 2005|12:25am] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | the ringing in my ears after practice, haha ] Holy fucking christ! tonight was fucked up. when me and azog started jamming, i was hearing stuff come out of his amp like it was grond singing there. we were playing immune and i could hear his vocals follow with the song. it's so god damn weird that he's been gone for almost 7 months since his death back in november. i miss him alot. i've been pretty down lately because of the death of my friend. i just can't stop thinking about it. i remember the night he did it. he was so fucking upset that night. i wish i were there and i could've tried to stop him. he's such an awesome guy and was a big influence on me. even though i've known him for about a year but still. he got me into alot of raw, hateful black metal. i miss him extremely. i've been like this for a week and kristen didn't know why i was depressed so she fucking flipped out on me thinking i was being a dick to her. well, she's wrong. but all in all, azog and I had a fucking fun time tonight. yelling at people outside of stripclubs is always fun with him. HAHA. i wish we could hang out everyday. i want out of here. but i don't want to leave dryspell behind. that's the only thing i never want to lose. 1 Devoured by wolves _ Walk into the forest

Hatred towards Humanity. [28 Apr 2005|02:43pm] [ music | Mayhem-Crystallized Pain in Deconstruction ] don't add me if you have no idea who i am. i don't like meeting new people. you all fucking suck. you're all fucking blinded by everything. nothing is real anymore. Walk into the forest

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